Friday I cried. No one knows why. Shin Yun asked, didn’t tell her because, don’t know why she expect me to say in front of so many people.

Cried because Lassie died Thursday. D=

I was just looking at the picture the std.3 person drew and I started crying. Wan Chi and Zini keep saying…”real, fake, real, fake…” would i fake cry with no reason when I’m ALONE?

Haiz…. Still remember when I bought her and Laddie. I had no where to put them so I put them in a basket. They kept climbing the basket and I kept pushing them down. Lassie was my first choice…. coz’ she was active.

The day Laddie died. I thought : How could a female hamster literally murder a male? She fought Laddie successfully over the pipes. Laddie had infection and died.

The first day she bit me. I guess I held her too much. She ran away every time I came near. Then one day it was time to clean her cage. I tried to grab her. She ran and bit my finger. Owe, that was painful. I was hurt.

The day she got blind. Zhi Hang left me a note saying that Lassie was acting weird. She was frantically running around, falling and bumping into things. There was the final conclusion : she was blind.

Well, it sure took more work to take care of her. We cut up apples for her to eat and for the water, there’s juice inside the apples. Routine for everyday : feed Lassie.

The last day she had left she didn’t each much. Sometimes she sniffed the apple but still didn’t eat it. I thought maybe she got full eating what Zhi fed her or by eating her own poop. Told Dad but he just said: “这种动物不会死的啦！”.

The last hours of her short life. I tried to feed her but she didn’t eat it. I banged the cage and blew at her. She didn’t come. She just had a few steps then closed her eyes again.

The day she died. I was going down for dinner thinking everything was fine. Mom and Zhi told me Lassie had died. I saw Lassie just lying there. The fleas were still flying around her. I kicked the cage. Aw, man.

Zhi was better at taking care of her then I was. He always told me to feed her and I always just did it. Sometimes I didn’t remember. Mom thought she died of dehydration. Dad said she was old and sometimes hamsters get blind before they die.

Aw, Lass. I just wished you gave my one last squeak. I don’t even remember when you last squeaked. Just wished you told me. Now I don’t wake up hearing you running the wheel. Your cage is empty and, horrors, clean.

Sorry, Lass. I should 'a been a better master to ya’.